Wreck

 Hello, this one is from the brain of memory again. I remember asking the Lord about a year ago, "What did I do wrong?", as I waited on the side of the road for the police car who was coming to take down the incident report that I happened to be involved in when driving. A girl from another state who was driving back to her home from her bachelorette party had her vehicle loaded down with friends and luggage and could not see out her rear window and I guess failed as well to look into her side view mirrors to see me next to her as she got over. Thankfully, even as I noticed her getting over and slowed down to allow her to have room, (as I didn't have anywhere else to turn due to the road barrier being directly to my left). I also honked my horn to alert her, but she said after that she didn't hear me, because her music was too loud. She still hit me, but thankfully none of the four of us involved were hurt. The only thing that was damaged was my vehicle which thankfully my insurance paid for. Interestingly enough there was not even a scratch on her new vehicle. So weird. I contemplated this since then wondering what could have been the reason for me not avoiding a wreck. So far, two reasons have come up and both of them are amazing! So wonderful how difficult situations can be turned for good.

The first I've noticed was that with my accident I was able to receive medical care up to a certain amount which afforded me the ability to receive chiropractic and massage therapy. Although the accident was minor and I probably wasn't going more than forty miles and hour even at my slowed speed, still the impact did a number on my neck. Either way, I was glad to have my first, second, and third chiropractic session ever by New Dawn Chiropractic in Candler, NC. She did a spectacular job and now I've gotten so used to the feeling of alignment I feast on this delicacy often. Since then, I have moved from Asheville, NC to East Flat Rock, NC and currently go to Dr. Tom at Mills River Family Chiropractic which is a lot close to home and a member of the doctorate society which I can trust. Both doctors have done an amazing job at my recovery and I am certain my body tells me now when I am in need of chiropractic care. 

The first blessing was ascertaining this type of medical care which before I had been neglectful to receive due to fear.

 After the wreck, chiropractic care became part of my world, giving me the sense that I was grateful to have participated in this seemingly haphazard circumstance. I would have never before had the pleasure of experiencing wellness that comes this type of care. Within my very first sessions with Dr. Dawn; I remember being confused about why I crying on her table. Dr. Dawn explained to me that this type of work often contributes to released emotions. The feeling of letting go was unfamiliar to me. I often found since I was a child I had to stuff my emotions inside. There were many reasons for this which perhaps I will get into another day. I also concluded from somewhere that being a single mother afforded me the need to be 'strong' and keep going, but this moment on the table I was allowed to release my burdens that I had suffered from and the ability to let loose the chains that were binding me. As I felt the weight of this sadness fall I discovered the beauty of a life encompassed in allowing people to care for you. People who are skilled, people who care, people who love and people who choose to be there. Suffering no more alone, I felt the deep connection that I had found a friend in Dr. Dawn when she comforted me with her expertise and the knowledge I did not need to hold shame for expressing my emotions in this way. I appreciated her kindness and was healed by the touch, not simply medical, but her wisdom in association with emotions as well as tact.

I have carried on this healing journey since then of allowing myself to fully heal. Whether I know in advance what I'm suffering from or not, I still continue down the road of self-love and discover each time I read a new book, become victorious over a trap that I've allowed myself to be in for some time, or chat with a friend about growth; I'm happy from where I've come.